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2020.09.23 23:10 beeleedee3 Feeling like part of a black mirror episode part 2

I had a few people asking for more of my creepy encounters after posting this one https://www.reddit.com/creepyencounters/comments/iy03ig/felt_like_i_was_in_a_episode_of_black_mirro?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share
  1. When I first started to hang around with this friend we'd often go on walks and hang around in parks etc. This one park we often went to was right next to a cemetery. One day we decided to walk through the cemetery and search for the oldest date on the headstones.
As we walked through we noticed the dates were going back into the 1700's and were shocked that we'd found ones this old. It was getting really dark at this point as we'd been out for awhile and the cemetery had no lighting. We decided it was probably best to head out at this point, as it got darker it got more creepy.
Slowly heading for the exit making sure we go careful. I look up and notice a floating ball of light not far ahead of us hovering over a grave. I point this out to my friends and one of them says it must be a solar panelled light that comes on at night. So we decided to walk closer and check it out. The ball of light stayed in the same place as we approached it and it definitely was not a lamp, there was nothing there. We all stood staring not sure how we felt about what we're seeing. And out of nowhere the ball just started to move away into the darkness, we watched it go and all of my goosebumps were out.
The grave had not long been there. My friend checked the headstone and that person was buried the same year. We decided it was a good idea to leave at this point. But as we turned to quickly get out of there we noticed another ball of light just over to the left of us. My friend got her phone out and shon her light over in that direction, and the ball was hovering infront of a very large statue, at least 2m high, of an angel. This was a grave stone I do believe but it really reminded me of the wheeping angels from Doctor Who so that was me straight out of the cemetery.
I did not go back here, but the two friends I was with did. A few days after this incident I was at home and them two went back. This time they headed straight for the angel statue. They had a little look around the area and checked to see if the person had a matching surname to the other grave where we'd seen the ball of light but they did not match, although they could of been related or friends. When they were at the grave, one of them found an old key. And she decided to take it home with her.
Later that night the three of us were on Skype as they told me about their visit to the cemetery and begun telling me the story about how they found they key. It was just laying on the floor right infront of the angel statue perfectly placed, not on angle, just sat parallel to the headstone. As if someone wanted it to be found.
As we spoke about it and the lights we'd seen days before, my friends camera started to go all pixelated. This is the friend that had taken the key home with her. Her camera froze and in the background just behind her was a face, it genuinely looked like a cherub but it not in a good way.
We could still hear her, and heard her let out a little scream. We were asking her what was wrong and if she was okay. She disappeared for a few minutes and reappeared holding the key to show me. As she entered her room with the key her camera suddenly started working again and we asked what had happened. She said she felt a tap on her shoulder. On her right hand side. Where we'd seen the cherub. But she wasn't aware of it until we told her when she came back.
The key wasn't just a normal looking house key, it looked like one that'd be used for the wardrobe to enter Narnia or something. It was a fancy looking key and it definitely intrigued us as to what it was for. But something just didn't feel right about it. Especially after this encounter.
For a few days after this my friend kept having weird experiences at home, she'd hear footsteps and noises around her house that she'd never heard before. Felt like she was being followed by something that wasn't there either. And worst of all, she kept having nightmares. And in each one she kept seeing angels and the same number repeating in all of these dreams.
So after these experiences we decided it was a good idea to put the key back where it was found. I did not go to do this as I wanted nothing to do with it incase whatever it was made an attachment to one of us. After the key was returned, the nightmares stopped and so did the weird occurrences at her home. We never returned to the cemetery either.
Since this happened though, an exact copy of the angel statue has been placed near the other one, as you can see them both at the back hiding in the shadows surrounded by trees when you drive past.And still to this day they terrify me.
  1. My two friends were walking to meet me, I did not live too far away but it was getting dark and the area we lived in was rough so we decided it was best for us to meet halfway to save me from walking the full distance on my own. They set off a little after me so I got a head start.
As I walked to meet them I got a phone call off one of them, when I answered she was just screaming and shouting. I could not make a word out with what she was saying to me. It sounded like they were running as I could hear feet hitting the ground and the wind blowing into the mic. Eventually I made out "don't walk. Stay there" and the phone went dead.
At the point in the walk that I was at, was a block of shops that I'd just have to walk past to be on a straight road to where they'd be meeting me. I decided to walk past just the block of shops so that I could see them coming down that straight road. As I rounded the corner I saw my two friends sprinting towards me with terrified expressions on their faces.
Within seconds they were at my side and grabbed my arms pulling me into the nearest shop as they ran. I asked what was happening and if everything was okay and they both stood panting trying to spit out what had scared them so much. As they both collected their breath I managed to make out parts of the story.
They were walking along minding their own business, it was dark out at this point so they were heavily relying on street lights to be able to see further ahead of them. Talking between the two of them, they got to a huge corner and begun to walk around it without looking across the road. As they got further round this huge corner, one looked up to see a dark off road, with a single streetlight lit.
Stood under the street light was a man with his hood up and a mask on. She nudged the other one and she looked up in that direction, still walking as they were across the road from the man. They felt something was dodgy but not like they were in any danger.
That was until the guy caught them both staring at him as they walked, so he dropped his trousers and started aggressively masturbating whilst watching them. At this point they ran, whilst trying to ring me and stop me from walking towards them. The man pulled his trousers up and ran at them too.
The area the man was stood, was a shortcut through for where I'd be walking to so if they hadn't have rang me I'd of walked down a dark alley and a dark road, straight into this creepy man exposing himself to underage girls and masturbating at them.
We decided it was best to stay in the shop for a little while as this had spooked them and put me on edge too. As we headed down the first aisle after standing and talking for awhile so I could get the story off them, I turned to find a guy stood looking at us weirdly. My friends had walked off ahead so I sped up to catch them up and told them, as we were all on edge at this point. They turned to look at him and instantly recognised the shoes and clothes he was wearing as the creepy guy who was stood on the corner. So that explains the way he was watching us.
They instantly looked panicked so we decided to stay in the store where it was lit, there was many people and staff around if he was to do anything and if we needed any help. He kept appearing around the shop watching us but we kept changing aisles to get away from him. Eventually we tricked him into thinking we were going to pay for our items on the self service tills so he did the same, and we walked off without scanning any in and went back into the aisles.
We kept peaking to see when he'd gone and he eventually walked out. We saw him walk past the side of the store as its full glass windows and he looked fuming but kept his eyes on us as he walked off. Deciding it was a bad idea to leave straight away we stayed in the store and when we left we headed the opposite direction to what we saw him go.
Even later on when we walked back that way we were on edge. As we neared the area that he had done his disgusting act, a man on a bike kept going past us and staring. Making us think that this was him, but decided that there was safety in numbers so we all wanted to get home safely as my mate could not get a ride home. Thankfully nothing happened after that.
After discussing it with parents, they reported it to the police and within a few weeks it was found that numerous reports had been made about the same man doing this in surrounding areas. He had a wife and kids, and was working on a site across the road from the block of shops where he'd stalked us around. So he knew the area well and knew that the shortcut was used often and badly lit. This to me shows he had bad intentions to do something to someone as he'd put himself in a perfect spot for this to happen.
That person could and would have been me if I had set off a few minutes earlier I'd have been caught in his trap. At the time I was only about 14 too. He got charged for what he did and apparently he admitted to the police that he had a serious problem.
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2020.09.23 23:08 leyli123 Just a thought

I think the most fucked up part of a breakup is when u asked that person to do certain things or be a certain way and they just felt like u weren’t worthy enough for that and they’ll turn around and act the way you asked them too with the new person they are dating. That shit hurts lowkey
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2020.09.23 23:07 ThrowRAishouldbewrkg How do I (27 F) know if he (28 M) likes me back? I'm sick and tired of not knowing

So I (27, F) have been crushing on this guy (28, M) for almost two years now...let's call him H.
I first saw him at work and was immediately drawn to him. I found out that he works a bit far away from my office so I ran into him like once a month or once every two months, it's not that often that I saw/see him but when I do, my god...Anyway, we met like four months after I first saw him. I was at his department talking to a friend of mine and I was hoping he'd pass by and we'd be introduced to each other, and that's exactly what happened lol. Then he asked me what I did and I told him and said he and a few of his friends have a side business for certain freelance services and if I would like to join as a freelancer, so I accepted.
I've been working with him on and off because of the business, and we've been texting quite often these days but it's always purely business with a side of humor sometimes, and he even started to use heart eye emojis lol, but it's always business related. We never discuss personal lives or anything, but our conversations, even though business related, are chill and I really feel like we get along. When I see him in real life we sometimes talk about non-business related topics, but because we see each other it hallways it's short and on the inside I'm aching to keep the conversation going because it flows so well and so naturally. Seeing him is such a nice feeling, like the closest thing I can describe it as is that he feels like home, like someone I'd love to have in my life. And he's so supportive, whenever I produce something irl he goes and gets it and sends me a picture of it. He's told me that I'm one of their favorite clients, and I still can't believe it.
However, he's going to be sent abroad soon and I'm not sure when. And I know for a fact that he's single. I feel like because we're both tied to our actual workplace and our side business it's hard to admit something so personal and I don't think I can ever tell him that I'm interested in him. It definitely doesn't work that way where I'm from. And I also have to mention that bc we're a conservative country (middle eastern) guys don't usually ask girls out on dates, if they're interested in a girl they contact the girls family to get to sit with her to make things more formal and stuff.
I've had a guy ask someone about me and it's dawning on me that I'm rejecting chances of meeting other people because my mind is so wrapped up with H. I just hate this feeling of uncertainty, I just want to know if he likes me back or not. I just need closure. What do you guys think I should do?
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2020.09.23 23:06 Pokemoncollectorguy Potential online dating scam

Hi, I was reading some of these online dating scam posts and wanted to post my experience and see what people think, since I am having a hard time finding the scam aspect in this one, and have searched hard.
I started talking to this woman a few weeks ago from a dating app. Like every scam begins, I had sent a message to them, and they replied saying they were deleting their account but would like to continue talking to me on email, and gave me their email. So I decided, what the heck, why not see how it goes.
I sent an email and received a response back and began talking to this woman I met. Not too long after, she replied stating she had changed her location to a different country because she wanted to meet a foreign man. She said she was actually from Russia. At this point I was like "ok probably a scam, but might as well see it through?" She made a point to say to state that she is not materialistic, which is probably a red flag, but continuing on...
It has been around 2 weeks and we have communicated via a few emails. Things of note:
My biggest red flag that threw me in a loop recently was when I decided maybe I dont want to chance it anymore. I sent an email to her saying I would like to discontinue communicating but wish her all the best. The next day, I received an email back and she seemed a bit distraught about the idea of ending communication, and suddenly, wanted to communicate via a video chat. What?
This was when I thought maybe the scammer might be getting desperate and is trying to latch on. I have received over 10+ pictures from her, a small video where I can clearly see it is the same woman and hear her talking, and i even have a picture of her writing my name on paper.
Is this really a skilled scammer? Is it a woman doing the scam on her own looking to pull it off? Is it an agency that hires woman do these scams?
I am not sure at this point. While I am careful to never send money online to someone I have never met in person, I do worry about where this is headed. At this point though, I tried hard to find reason to see it as a scam, but if it is, they are doing a really good job. She is not head over heels in love with me and ready to marry me like you see in all those scam letters.
Maybe this is real? I wish I could share more details like exact transcripts but if it is real, damn that would be a shame.
Any discussion is appreciated!
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2020.09.23 23:03 Clisle5 Has anyone Life been affected by their Mom walking Around the house naked in front of her Kid son?

I’m a 32 African American Man. Growing up I had always been attracted to any girl or Women that didn’t have dark Melanin skin. I Love my ethnicity and Black Queen’s, but It’s Fucking embarrassing not being able to get it Up (erection) before sexual intercourse with Dark skinned Melanin Queen’s. So I date light skin Women of Color and White Girls, because I never have that problem with them at all. So now I’m talking to Dee one of the Most Beautifull Black Dark skin Women I have ever met in my Life. Great Personality Careing Goofy Athletic everything I been Looking For. So It Happened I couldn’t Perform when the time came and she was kewl about it didn’t make a big deal out of it or nothing. I’m trying to decide if I should tell her why I can’t get erect, cause your the same Color of My Mom And I seen her naked too Many times. What Do I do?
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2020.09.23 23:01 No_Organization7389 Honest opinion about my relationship

So to start off about 7 months ago I met my girlfriend through bumble.... at first we did not like each other that much(well she didn’t like me I thought she was very attractive) she was very attractive but her personality seem bland at first we went in a date to a taco spot nearby. Then went back to her place to eat. We ended up watching a movie and just talking. And getting to know each other. After we hung out I left and I said we should hangout again. Fast forward 2 months later. We would hang out a lot never had any sex or anything just cuddled and I would go home. In the morning finally I made my move and my idiot self said to her I think we should date. It’s been a solid seven months of us dating and I don’t really fall In love easily. Considering my upbringing but.. I don’t know if it’s just a honeymoon phase or that I truly found the one. I’ve always had trouble being faithful to one girl and I’d always ended up dumping them and enjoying being single. But I fell deeply in love with my girlfriend. In such a short time and I want an honest opinion because idk if I’m moving to fast or is it just a honey moon phase..
P.s srry for the shitty writing I’m not very good at writing. If you need more info I happily update for you guys
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2020.09.23 23:00 iceskimo Doubts on LDR relationship between me (19F) and CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND (20M)

I've been dating my best friend for almost a year and a half now. We've known each other since birth and started growing super close after he moved away when we were toddlers. Since high school, we've been best friends and mostly kept in touch online, sometimes seeing each other in person but it was always awkward. It wasn't until senior year (2019) that we truly hung out in person and then I started developing feelings from the emotional connection we shared. Before then, I never had feelings for him or even found him attractive but he always had feelings for me (on and off for about 8 years).
Fast forward to now, we sailed through the first year of college smoothly while still being long distance. He is the sweetest, most caring guy who respects me and truly loves me for who I am. We know everything about each other and have seen each other's lowest of lows. I can truly be myself around him without fear of judgment. We love each other's families. But why am I starting to have doubts?
I feel like I always had certain thoughts but pushed them aside because I told myself that emotions aren't important and love is a choice. I knew we had different senses of humor or that I wasn't the most attracted to him, but we love each other and that's the most important. But recently I've been noticing things more, like how I don't find him funny and we don't make each other laugh, or that I don't really find him the most attractive, etc. I also am graduating college two years early and will be entering the work force while he'll be in college for another two years. I don't know if these thoughts are a phase or temporary, but I really don't want to have any regrets. I really thought he was the one, and that we would get married and I truly wanted that. I'm just so confused now and am scared...Am I expecting too much? Are these stupid small things that don't even matter, and I have to continue ignoring them like I once did? Am I staying with him because I'm scared I won't find someone as good as him? Or because I truly love him as a person? Are we better off as best friends and not lovers? I'm so afraid of ending things and regretting it but I also feel like this is something I need in order to grow. But he is SERIOUSLY the most amazing, loving guy I ever met. What do I do???
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2020.09.23 22:56 Notmefors I've been dating a girl for six months and she doesn't even know my real name.

Once upon a time a boy met a girl the boy fell in love the only problem was that the girl was dating his friend. So the boy put of a fake personal to win the girl and wait for them to break up but the girl wasn't really interested in this persona. So they stopped texting. A year later the boy still has feelings for the girl so he makes a new account and reunites with her but with a different name, different birthdate, different school. Instead of putting on a persona the boy decided to be himself (the irony there😂) six months later the boy loves the girl and she has loves him back but he's afraid of what will happen once he tells her who he really is.
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2020.09.23 22:54 HimeMiko Anxiety & Procrastination

Hello WTT gang,
Sorry for the rant, but I just needed to get this off my chest…I’m having trouble with anxiety and waiting…My official try date is Dec 31, 2020!! Only three months away, but even waiting a couple months gives me so much anxiety. I have a couple months left to try to….
- lose weight
- destress
- save money
- research baby stuff
- change my routines (avoid a bunch of stuff[makeup, skincare, alcohol, coffee, sushi when I'm pregnant], and as you guys can tell in my history, I decided to stop using essential oils (since my last post))
AND DANG it’s so close but so far. I’m supposed to be doing all these things, but I feel like I’m accomplishing nothing, just feeling so so stuck. It doesn’t help that COVID is happening, and I’ve been working in the hospital nonstop since March. Stress is through the roof.
I am a textbook procrastinator, and I have done nothing on these steps other than taking my prenatal vitamins…Even though it’s waiting three more months, it makes me feel so miserable…
I feel like I have so much do to, but no motivation to do any of it, so I chose to do nothing…am I even going to be a good mother? What if I am barren and can’t have kids?!?! What if I have a kid and there’s going to be physical or cognitive problems??!!? I’ve always been kind of a negative person, and my husband encouraged me to seek counselling last year to resolve some of my childhood traumas. For the most part, I’m still working on it, but I definitely feel that I am better than I was a year ago (mentally). But this anxiety, so much of it, all the time…We will be taking a trip with an RV next week to de-stress (while socially distancing because it's in an RV). I feel the need to get away for a bit. I've been waiting to try for about 2 years now...and now that I'm in the endgame, it's just so much pressure...
Sorry I’m all over the place, I was just hoping to reach out to see if there’s other people in similar situations.
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2020.09.23 22:54 Notmefors I've been dating a girl for six months an she doesn't even know my real name.

Once upon a time a boy met a girl the boy fell in love the only problem was that the girl was dating his friend. So the boy put of a fake personal to win the girl and wait for them to break up but the girl wasn't really interested in this persona. So they stopped texting. A year later the boy still has feelings for the girl so he makes a new account and reunites with her but with a different name, different birthdate, different school. Instead of putting on a persona the boy decided to be himself (the irony there😂) six months later the boy loves the girl and she has loves him back but he's afraid of what will happen once he tells her who he really is.
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2020.09.23 22:54 matty276 Don't see a reason for putting myself out there any more

I (M22) never had a date, got asked out, or have been in a relationship. After years of trying to talk to girls, learning from my mistakes, and improving myself, I find it very tough to motivate myself and find a reason why I even should try again now or ever.
I've tried the old fashioned way and getting to know them in person, but I never had the other person actually being 'romantically interested' in me. I've tried tinder, hinge, bumble and Coffee meets bagel, but I barely had any matches, even after making a profile with other girls together and asking for texting tips.
After all this, I find it very demotivating when people still say that "your time will come" or "someone still is out there for you". Because it doesn't really change the facts I'm confronted with and just gives me the feeling that they don't really understand what it feels like.
The worst part for me at least is that this has created a feeling of not even being a consideration or seen as a viable option. It feels like you're somewhat meant to be left alone, even though I do have an urge to mean something significant for someone else.
I would be very grateful for any advice, tips, or even help on how to cope with this feeling or even have some sort of luck with this :)
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2020.09.23 22:53 beryl-weeb "too young to die"

i don't really know where to start with this, so here's like some intro or whatever
I'm 14, I've wanted to kms for a year or so, I'm transgender and really anxious about the surgeries and shit like that even though I can't legally get gender surgery until I'm 18, i live with both of my parents and they have a great relationship with each other, I've told my mom that i have depression and she never brought it up, she just noticed that I've been staying in bed really late during the day and that means that something is wrong with me, i can't bring myself to tell the person that gave me life that i don't want it anymore. I've only directly told 1 of my good friends that I'm suicidal and about depression and whatnot, and that i tried to overdose last week.
i know what i need to be happier, i just can't get to it. i broke up with my girlfriend last month because i figured out that since I'm trans, that i want to date someone of the same gender, and she did the whole "but i only want you, please don't leave me" type shit and i said i didn't want to be friends with her either because she obviously still wants to be with me. i miss getting affection from people. not my friends, or relatives, i want someone to love in a romantic way. someone that would have warm hands to hold my face with, someone to hug, someone to hang around with because i don't have any real life friends.
my mom has signed me up for about 3-4 therapists, and I'm just tired of it. every new therapist i go to, i have to retell the same story again and again and i just want someone that isn't some 50 year old lady that has no experience with what I've been through.
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2020.09.23 22:52 SloppyEyeScream Rambone: The Combat Cock

Fellow Fuckery Humans,
I would like to take a moment and address my rant yesterday, and dispel any speculation. There have been a handful of Redditors "toe-the-line" and apologize because they genuinely believe they were the culprit(s). Please understand that I have no issue being brutally honest, but this is not the appropriate forum to call fellow humans out. That would be far too much, even for me. However, if you received a Direct Message (DM) from me stating, "You are under no obligation to subscribe to FuckeryUniveristy, and I strongly encourage you to find a more suitable sub if you are offended by my humor. It is never my intention to offend and individual, or ostracize a group of people, but I will not change my writing style." Well, If you received that message, verbatim, I was ranting about you!
"Don't judge a book by its cover." I am certain the majority of us have been told that idiom at some point in our life. I remember it being drilled into my head from an early age from parents, educators, and now my wife. The wife gets irritated with me when I discuss my standpoint on this topic. I honestly think she would prefer I use a hot curling iron to pleasure her eager-beaver than listen to me debate said topic. I would sincerely like to avoid ranting this early into a story so I will leave it at this; It's not a fucking law people!
If you are anything like me, you will understand the novel Coronavirus (COVID19), coupled with my new role as a Middle School and High School educator has done absolute wonders for my drinking game. I am not a complete degenerate; I don't get shitfaced every night. It is imperative that I have enough hand-eye coordination to successfully ensure Cake doesn't expedite my expiration date. Needless to say, I have added some cans to my six pack. I don't want to be fat. Nobody wants to be fat. Besides, fat people have enough on their plates. Let's assume for second, that I never worked-out in my life, and I was in need of a personal trainer. Imagine my surprise when I show up at Planet Fitness and see the Personal Trainer (PT) I hired was five feet tall and weighed 400 pounds. I am not talking 400 pounds of muscle either. I am describing the quintessential "Dicky-Do" human. His middle girth sticks out farther than is Dickey-Do, and he likely makes cottage cheese in his bellybutton. Would you judge this book by it's cover? You'd assume he does "12oz Curls" for a living, and his Personal Record (PR) for pizza is an entire pizza in his mouth.
If you said "no" you are either a liar, or fucking Hawk. Judging books by their covers is a vital part of human nature. We judge people based off their physical traits for a magnitude of reasons which include, but are not limited to, finding a suitable one-night-stand, or survival reasons. Dear Reader, I have never walked into a bar and thought, "That anorexic meth-head in the corner has phenomenal birthing hips. I totally want to throw my hotdog down her hallway." Ladies in the audience, have you ever seen or met a male who's entire demeanor screamed "rape"? Sure, he just got out of prison for a "forcible sodomy" charge, but you matched on Tinder. Please, don't judge him by his cover, I am certain he is a reformed man.
Sorry. I said I wouldn't rant, but then I totally fucking ranted again. It was not entirely off-subject though. I surmise you, the Reader, are now fully aware that I will judge you the moment I see you. However, you are all fully aware that I am "unique" or "different". The majority of my "prejudgement" is with regard to work. I have zero fucks to give if you have purple hair, tattoos, and ear gauges large enough to stow Oreo cookies. Simply, at times, there are very valid reasons to pass judgement. Naysayers, if I agreed with you, we'd both be wrong!
Where is this going? Right H-E-R-E: I met Private Baldwin at Basic Combat Training (BCT). I disliked him the moment I laid eyes on him. He was a lump of human shit, and somehow God managed to stack that Jenga-block of shit six feet high. He was the human result of the worlds first anally-delivered lifeform. My disdain for Baldwin exponentially increased when he opened is ball-washers (mouth). Baldwin was Hawk-like regarding commonsense. However, Baldwin was very different than Hawk. Hawk may have been oblivious to commonsense, but Hawk actually excelled in certain areas, and always had pure intentions. The traits that made Baldwin so enjoyable to hate was his arrogance, and ignorance. He was the village fucking idiot, but he was always right.
Remember King Joffrey from Game of Thrones? If I seen Jack Gleeson (King Joffrey) in real life, I would happily walk across the street and sock him right in his fucking face. He was a phenomenal villainous actor, and I could not wait for his demise. He was so good as an actor I wanted to physically harm him in real life (IRL). Baldin was the King Joffrey for my entire class of Basic Combat Training. I actually seldomly use the word "hate," and my inner-circle knows this about me. When I say, "hate," I fucking mean it, and I hated Baldwin.
Publisher Clearing House Dramatization
Ed McMahon: Congratulations OP! You have just one a million dollars a month for the rest of you life!
OP: (Baffled) Oh. My. God! Is this real?
Ed: I assure you this is 100 percent real. Congratulations! My associate, Mr. Baldwin, will be presenting you the check.
OP: Get the fuck off my porch before I retrieve one of my many firearms and kill you!
Drastic? Only for those of you that have never met him. I would rather eat an entire bag of hammered assholes than be graced with the likes of Baldwin for a single fucking second. Hate! I fucking hate him. I know it will drag the story out a bit, but how about we detail a few reasons for my immense hate. I will do my best type in crayons so our civilian-only Readers understand.
Physical Fitness: This is a big part of Basic Training. They Drill Sergeants are eradicating your civilian life and erecting a Soldier. Physical prowess is important. Furthermore, there are certain things you don't do while at Basic Training, like quit. I don't mean being physically exhausted of reaching muscle failure either. I mean downright quitting. "I don't feel like running today Drill Sergeant." Also, be cognizant that when statements like this are made everyone gets punished.
Desserts: Only a few of us are aware of this! There is a dessert area in the chow halls of Basic Training Units at Fort Benning, Georgia. The Drill Sergeants made it very fucking clear that we were not worthy of and delectable treats during our tenure at Basic Training. You can "window-shop" the pies and cookies, but don't you fucking touch them. Baldwin, and his sharp-as-a-marble brain, decided this did not apply to him. He didn't openly devour the treats. He fucking horded them. Our first "Health and Welfare" (Drill Sergeants Toss Your Shit) exposed his stash. Who the fuck stashes pies in a fucking sock drawer? This mother fucker had cookies is in hygiene kit. Toothbrush, check. Razors, check. Enough Snickerdoodle cookies to feed an orphanage, fucking check! Again, all of use were punished.
Grenades: Ever see a video of a Private failing to throw a grenade forwards? That's Baldwin. The unbelievably heavy 14 ounce M67 Fragmentation Grenade was too much for him to manage. He managed to toss the grenade a whopping two feet, behind him. The Drill Sergeant was forced to summon his inner Lawrence Taylor as he tackled Baldwin into the grenade pit.
Verbatim
Drill Sergeant C-Note: What the fuck were you thinking private?
Baldwin: I wanted to watch to watch it explode Drill Sergeant.
C-Note: It was two feet away...
Baldwin: Then you tackled me...
C-Note: (Seething Rage) Get the fuck out of here Private.
Baldwin: Can I send the pull-ring to my mom?
C-Note: Inaudible Screaming...
Baldwin: NOBODY DIED. STOP YELLING.
Drill Sergeant C-Note had a "meeting" with the Platoon later that night. Baldwin had a "meeting" with the First Sergeant about the days events at the same time. The meeting with C-Note was to enlighten us, regarding Baldwin, and the reason he was still among the living, but specifically, why he was in the Army. C-Note explained that Baldwin is a National Guard (NG) Soldier. Furthermore, he was from a State that was in desperate need of Soldiers. It was about numbers, and there was no way Baldwin wouldn't pass Basic Training unless he went Absent Without Leave (AWOL) or died. We were told we needed to, "fix him," or we would all suffer. How the fuck do you fix the un-fixable?
I advocated for shoving a broomstick in his rectum and plunging his face in a toilet until the life left his body. I knew the broomsticks were made in China, and were likely not sturdy enough to support the mass of human-depravity, but it was an option. I would like to add that I was not the only Soldier who supported this particular Course of Action (COA), but we were outnumbered by the liberal Soldiers who thought "training" him was more appropriate. These Soldiers were clearly into Sadism, Necrophilia, and Bestiality; they had yet to realize they were "beating a dead horse" though. Was it really that bad Sloopy? Yes Could you teach Steven Hawking how to walk again? Cue dramatization!
Dramatization
Scenario: Trigger-happy criminal with Tourette Syndrome (TS), and a stuttering problem has a gun to my head and gives me two options in order for me to continue my journey among the living.
OP: Please don't shoot me. I have a beautiful wife and two boys, and without proper adult supervision you may inadvertently be unleashing the evil prowess of Cake.
TS: Shut-shut-shut-shut the fa-fa-fa-fuck up. I-I-I wa-wa-wa-will let you la-la-la-live if you ca-ca-ca-ca-can ta-ta-train Baldwin or...
OP: What's the fuck "or"? I fucking pick "or".
TS: Or ya-ya-ya-you ta-ta-ta-teach a-a-a-a po-po-polar bear ass-ass-astrophysics tha-tha-through cre-cre-creative da-da-da-dance.
OP: Only if I get to wear a pink leo-leo-leo-tard?
TS: Ha-ha-ha yo-yo-you ga-ga-ga-got jokes?
OP: Ya-ya-ya-yes!
Was it a bit to-to-to much? Maybe, but I sincerely hope you now have an adequate understanding of how I feel about Baldwin. Please understand that this is not a temporary feeling either. I would love to waterboard him with my own urine while asking, "Who does number two work for?" if given the opportunity. Actually, that's a lie. Baldwin gives me FEAR, and I would literally think, "Fuck Everything And Run" if I ever see him again.
Basic Combat Training (BCT) graduation is a big deal, but not really. Sure, I was happy I had completed the first step in my nearly 20-year journey, but the thought of not seeing Baldwin ever again was a greater prize. He was from INSERT STATE National Guard, and I thought there was snowballs chance in hell that I would ever see that sad-sack-of-human-shit ever again. I "thought". I can hear my father, again, say, "Thought thought he farted, but he really shit his pants." I fucking thought wrong!
It was my third deployment and I was apart of the Advanced Echelon (ADVON) which means myself and a select group of Soldiers would depart country (Iraq), return home, and prepare to receive the unit as they redeploy stateside. However, this means we would not be privileged to a "check-the-block" or expedited customs. We were subjected to the typical customs process the Regular Army endures as they redeploy stateside. We were traveling back with nearly one-hundred grand worth of death-producing gadgetry in our gun boxes alone, but the Customs Agents had to make sure we didn't have any contraband such as: switchblades, grenades, ammunition, or porn. Yes, I said porn. Pornography magazines and Personal Pleasure Devices (PPD) were not allowed in Muslim countries, and therefore we were not allowed to smuggle it back to America; The Fucking Land of Porn!
No shit, there I was! I was sitting on a bench with Rob, a fellow leader, and I see a colon-sphincter-birthed lump of human waste that resembles Baldwin, the fucking anti-intelligent. It was hard to resist my urge to "beat him like a Sunday morning wood." Every ounce of my being wanted to physically harm him, and it would have been more fun than a well-oiled midget.
OP: Holy fuck! Is that fucking Baldwin?
Rob: Who the fuck is Baldwin?
OP: A fucking oxygen-thief I went to Basic with.
Random Soldier: Excuse me Sergeant.
OP: (Who the fuck are you look?) Yeah!?!
Random Soldier (RS): Did you say (whisper) Baldwin?
We now start the dance. The one where dogs sniff each others asses to determine if they want to be a friends. I don't know the guy, and I seriously don't like offending people, unless it is warranted. I start the sniffing processing, but I don't want take a large "pull" of his wrinkle-grommet (asshole) immediately. The butt sniffing process needs to be done in stages, like a cold pool. I need to start small, so I stick my pinky toe into his chocolate-starfish before the fisting begins.
OP: Do you know Baldwin?
RS: Yeah. I know Baldwin. How do you know him?
OP: Basic. (Baby Toe Question) So, what do you think of him?
Random Soldier was clearly unaware of the dog butt-sniffing Rules of Engagement (ROE). There was no anal foreplay. He went "hard in the paint" and was eager for the pink-eye-surprise.
RS: I fucking hate him. We all fucking hate him.
OP: Have a seat friend!
I love Rob like a brother. We had been to hell-and-back, and because of this strong bond I was going to prank him. Rob was unaware, but in one of his bags was the "Rambone". It was a Rambo themed, 16 inch, green vibrator with a camouflaged bandana. It was a big triumphant bastard that was ready for combat action.
OP: I have a giant fucking vibrator. What do you say we shove it in Baldwins bag?
RS: Fucking awesome.
Rob: Where is it?
OP: (I don't know how to tell you this look.) In your duffel bag.
Rob: WHAT?
OP: Chill-out. Now you don't have to worry about it anymore.
The look on Rob's face was priceless when I dick out of the bag.
Rob: You put this in my bag? It's got a fucking bandana. Where the fuck did you get this?
OP: I had FRIENDS NAME send it to me.
RS: (Hysterical Laughter) Inaudible noises. (Tears in eyes, and snot leaking from nose.) More inaudible noises.
Rob: Why?
OP: Specifically!?! For this very reason, to shove it in your bag and watch your face in Customs!
Rob: You're an asshole.
OP: I suppose your right. You should be thankful though.
Rob: (Bothered for some fucking reason.) I should be (Long Pause) THANKFUL?
OP: I'm sorry.
Rob: You don't even mean it.
OP: No. No, I don't.
Fast-Forward
You, the Reader, don't need a long explanation for Operation "Maximal Insertion". The Random Soldier was Baldwin's Squad Leader (Responsible for nine humanoids), and knew his combination. We simply opened the duffel bag and plunged the Rambone deep, deep inside his bag. Then we waited. We needed the formal briefing, the "Amnesty Period" in which you have time to drop that frag grenade you forgot about in a giant red "I-forgot-I-still-had-a-grenade-box." We waited for an hour, laughing hysterically, until it was time.
BALLS OUT, MY LIFE IS A SLUT, THIS DICK DON'T HIT THE BOTTOM, BUT I FUCK THE SIDES UP!
It was nearly New Years in the Customs Tent. The three of us were eagerly awaiting for the ball(s) to drop; right out of Baldwins bag. There was a minor hiccup in the operations. Somehow, in the shuffle of moving the bags around, the Rambone decided it was time to pleasure the duffel bag and hum like a fucking kazoo.
Rob: OP NICKNAME. I think the vibrator turned on.
OP: You think? It's buzzing like a fucking bee.
RS: I can literally feel the vibration through the floor.
Fear not reader. Baldwin is a fucking idiot. I was worried when he looked around, but Baldwin's mental retardation came through in the clutch. He was aware the car had a flat tire, but he was looking under the hood to fix it. He heard the hum, and stared at fridge full of water for a couple minutes. He picked the bag up numerous times to inch it forward toward the tables where you "dump your shit," and never once realized his bag had a bumble bee fucking a humming bird in the form of a giant cock. His intelligence and wherewithal had clearly been loaned out since birth. He was a walking amoeba, but shaped like a human. He dragged the hummer until he was next in line. The excitement in the air was palpable.
Surprise Cock-Bag
Baldwin dumps his duffel bag on the table. The duffel bag high in the air obscures his view of the Rambone as it flops to the table and jolts around like a Mexican jumping bean. The sound of this vibrator engine turning-over again, and again, and again, was enough to draw the attraction of at least six other Soldiers and Customs Agents. All eyes were on Baldwin.
Baldwin drops his bag and now sees that something is snaking its way through his clothes. The look of disgust on the Custom Agents face was hilarious. Just shocked. He was completely and utterly shocked. I should mention that this Custom Agent was different. He was like "The Mountain" from Game of Thrones. He was the largest black man I had ever seen in my life. I am 100 percent certain his uniform was uniquely tailored to fit the mounds of muscle on his body. He was a hulk of a man, and I shit you not, he resembled Wardy Joubert III (Google The NAME). If the rest of his body was "proportional" I'd be certain he was Wardy himself, all the way down to the dick-loaf.
Customs Agent aka Dick-Loaf (DL): You can't have that.
Baldwin is dumber than Hawk, and the rest of this interaction confirms it! Baldwin looks at the giant cock that had already managed to rumble the camouflaged bandana off.
Baldwin: (OBLIVIOUS) It's not mine.
DL: I don't care whose it is, you cant take it back.
Baldwin: It's not mine.
DL: I don't care if it was yours, your friends, or your mothers. It's contraband, and you can't have it.
Baldwin, not knowing where this vibrator had plunged before, picks it up and waves it in Dick-Loafs face. It was waving back-and-forth like a limp Lightsaber. Just a floppy fucking lightsaber that continues to grind the vibrations out.
Rambone: Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
Baldwin: (Angry-Tard) I SAID (PAUSE) IT'S NOT MINE!!!!!!!!!!
DL: If you don't get that outta my face, I'm gonna fucking hurt you.
Baldwin: Fine. Then take it from me.
DL: I. AM. NOT. TOUCHING. THAT. THING.
Baldwin: (Verbatim) WHERE DO YOU WANT ME TO STICK IT THEN?
Side Note: Yes. We are ALL, the entire tent now, laughing hysterically. EVERYONE.
DL: PUT IT IN THE AMNESTY BOX. NOW
Does Baldwin go outside to the large Goodwill-bin-sized Amnesty Box that would accommodate a fucking Prius? Nope, he goes to the small bank-teller-box-sized Amnesty Box. The slit on this box was maybe eight-inches wide and two-inches tall. Baldwin uses retard-strength for about thirty-seconds to conduct his own "Maximal Insertion" operation. However, and regardless of a hammer, the square peg will never fit inside the circle hole. This Rambone looked like it attempted a burglary, but got stuck in the window. The gonad portion and at least six inches of "shaft" were exposed and violently trying to escape the box. Fuck it! Baldwin returned to his table ready to resume. Dick-Loaf was not happy.
DL: Get back over there. Removed the dick. And then take it outside to the bin.
Baldwin: It's in the box.
DL: NO. IT IS NOT. Do you want to fly home tonight or not?
Baldwin had a face of a porn star whom was told their blowjob game sucked, bad sucked though! He returned to remove the dick from the box. However, the Rambone "head" acted like a barb on a fishing hook. It was easy to insert the dickhead in, but the dickhead-barb didn't want to be extracted. It was happy just flopping around. Baldwin literally had to use his leg to brace himself while he got a firm grasp on the shaft and balls, and pulled with might of a dentist extracting a wisdom tooth.
What do you think happened? If you guess, "It "popped" when it dislodged itself and sent Baldwin and Rambone crashing to the floor. You're correct. Now the dick was bouncing around like a dick-fish out of water. Baldwin then retrieved the fish and haplessly tossed it into the large bin where it matted with other contraband, and made a very distinct metal-fucking-metal-and-plastic noise. It. Was. Glorious. Then Baldwin, casually, and still oblivious, returns to the table to complete his Customs Inspection.
DL: Are you good now?
Baldwin: It wasn't mine, and I don't think there are anymore dicks in my bag. I want to go home.
DL: Good. Just so you know, I am not touching any of your shit. You can pick items up one-at-a-time, and shove them back in yourself. You're a strange mother fucker!
Baldwin: I WAS NOT MY DIIIICCCCKKKKK?
I know this was LONG. I apologize, and I will not drag-it-out much longer. The entire ordeal was hilarious. It was the funniest Customs event I have ever witnessed, and Baldwin's lack of awareness made it that much better. It was finally a little payback for all the torture he put me, and the other Soldiers through during basic training. Don't get me wrong either, I would still love to waterboard him with my urine for shits and giggles though. I am okay with stupid people. I am semi-okay with other arrogant people. Baldwin characteristic traits was as if he won the retarded Powerball though. I'd most definitely walk across the street and punch him in the little-bits if I EVER see him again.
Cheers
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2020.09.23 22:52 Goaway_now Does[18m] my girlfriend[18f] want to have an open relationship or a threesome with me?

Ok, my girlfriend of half a year keeps showing me pictures and apparently wants me to date others? She’s also said “I wanted to ask this girl out but she was taken, wow.”, but that statement was when we were officially dating, and before we started dating she said “This girl thinks I have a crush on her, lol.” which i’m pretty sure that was a head game since we weren’t even dating yet.
She continuously sees if I have interest in others, when this first happened I told her I only wanted her then her response was “My bad” I told her it was no need to be sorry. She then KEPT doing it even more to the point where it’s annoying me. She shows me a picture of not only females, also MALES. I’m not gay but I do have enough confidence to compliment another guy. My Gf showed me a instagram picture of some guy and she said “He’s tall” I replied “Hot” she responded “I know right” Then she’ll say “Do you want me to show you a profile of a girl now?” I replied “Sure” then she’ll show me profiles.
She’s shown me pictures of MOSTLY females and she even gives me the usernames of these people and I search them up. She’s asked me to send a friend request to some female and I did what she wanted me to do. I said “eh, she’s not really my type but I’ll contact her.” I looked up her username and sent her a friend request(She luckily didn’t answer, lol) and later on my gf asked me if I ever sent a friend request to that person and I told her I did but she didn’t accept it, my girlfriend’s response was “Lol” so she thought it was funny, I guess.
I asked her if I could have multiple partners. Her response was “What? Actually, yes, you can have 2 girlfriends but does that mean I get to have 2 boyfriends?”, Her response sounded sarcastic, IMO, She also has mentioned “I’m so scared I’ll lose you” I asked her how would she lose me and she replied “What if you find someone better.” Maybe this insecurity is the reason and she’s testing me OR does she want an open relationship?
TL;DR girlfriend tries to see if I’m interested in others and I’ve told her I only wanted her but she continues to see if i’m interested in other people. She has mentioned being “scared she’ll lose me to someone better”
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2020.09.23 22:51 TapBarrel I think I'm unlovable

I[23F] have never been in a long term relationship. I've never attracted someone in real life. No one's ever asked me out or expressed interest in me. I've never had a crush on someone and experienced the possibility in them liking me back. And it's not like I haven't tried to change the way I look to attract more people. I've changed a lot, like my style and my make up, I've lost and gained weight. I try my best to be the kindest person I can be. Yet, I still have never attracted someone enough to go on 1 single date with anyone I've met naturally.
So I turned to tinder to find someone. I started with going on dates with guys. But they usually lasted a few weeks before we'd break it off. And then I finally found a guy that seemed to like me enough to wanna go on more than just 2 dates. Things between us started off kinda heavy, but after 2 months, he stopped talking to me. All he did was send me pictures of himself and expected me to say he looked good despite barely complimenting me whenever I would do the same. And I knew he was sending the same selfies to other people so it's not like sending them to me meant anything. He also never asked me how I was doing or even showed the slightest of interest in my life. All he did was talk about himself. Eventually, I broke up with him. But he said he just wasn't interested in me anymore, which ngl hurt. I know it was nothing personal but it just sucks bc I feel like the entire time, he just wanted someone to hype him up and someone he could use for sex. I was never someone he saw as good enough for him in any other way.
Fast forward a few months, I started sexting with guys from Tinder. A lot of them liked my body, commenting on my 'curves'. I started sexting this one guy who was drunk while sexting me. He started sending me compliments like "you're so beautiful" and "gorgeous." Normally, I block these guys after the sexting is over, and I did block him, but I was so taken aback by how nice he was and how nice the compliments he gave me were that I decided to unblock him. The next morning, I woke up to "Good morning beautiful" and then he asked for my IG. I gave it to him and he kept telling me how beautiful I was. I asked him if he wanted to hook up and he said sure. This was my first time hooking up with someone and I was so nervous but he was really sweet bc he kept telling me how nervous he was too. He was really sweet in real life and hooking up with him was honestly so hot. He talked to me for a few days afterwards but then he blocked me. Fast forward two weeks later, I get a message from him saying he was sorry he blocked me. He said he started falling for me but didn't want to. So then we started a sexting relationship. We would sext every now and then for a few months, he would always say "I miss you" and "I'm in love". Obviously I knew that these weren't actual emotional sentiments, he was just super horny. But sometimes he would say things to me like "I really like you as a person" and then proceed to state actual facts about me that he liked. We even called once and he said "I miss talking to you" and that's when my heart dropped. I started actually feeling things for him. And there was a possibility he felt the same way. But then I message him one day, asking if we could sext - this was the first time I initiated it, he's usually the one to hmu - and he says he's done with it. He doesn't want me anymore and I get hurt again. Just another guy that I think I have something with, only to find out in the end that I really was being used. This one should have been more obvious to me, but I was just so caught up in all the compliments and the sweet talking that I forgot what the agreement was between him and I.
I was so heartbroken by this, that I turned to Tinder once again to find someone. Eventually I found another person but he ended up being kind of a dick. He really liked me though, and the times when he was nice, he was really nice. But sometimes he would get mad over very small things which is a red flag. I tried to break it off with him, but he insisted we be friends. He let me vent to him about some things and he vented to me about other things and I was glad to have a new friend. But a few days after that, he reverted back to being mushy and saying "I miss you" "I like you" etc. I didn't know how to break it off with him so I just went along with it. I felt conflicted because here's someone that likes me and wants to hang out with me, but I don't like him back. Should I just take this opportunity while I have it? But it didn't matter, because he got mad at me for something small and blocked me. But it kind of made me think, am I someone people don't take seriously? Am I a toy? Because if this guy actually liked me, he wouldn't have just blocked me for no reason. I guess he realized I wasn't someone he could just play around with whenever he was bored and blocked me because I was no longer of use to him.
So I started hooking up with people. I thought, if I wasn't good enough to date, maybe I'm good enough to fuck. I went through a string of guys. I wanted to feel physically desired. I've always hated my body but hooking up with guys made me feel a little bit better about how I looked. But sometimes, these guys would look disappointed upon seeing me. And then I started to feel ugly again.
Then I made I promise to myself to stop hooking up with people. I should only have sex with people I date. I felt like I was getting bad luck because of how careless I've been with my body. My intention behind sleeping with so many people was not good. It's one thing to hook up with people because sex makes you feel good, but it's another thing to do it because it's the ONLY thing that makes you feel good. So I stopped. I blocked everyone. I was done. From here on out, I should only date.
So I met another guy on Tinder (4th times the charm right). He was sweet and we texted all day every day. After about a week, we went out on a first date. But we ended up having sex. I felt gross again, like I was just used for another hookup, thinking it was an actual date. I was just so disappointed in myself for letting things get so far. I was so tired of being used.
But then he texted me a few weeks later asking about my life. We started talking about how neither of us expected to have sex on that first date and he told me that he never usually has sex with someone he just met. We went back to being cute, talking pretty much every day, sending memes and selfies. But now, about 2 months later, it's died down. And I feel like I'm bothering him. We haven't gone out a 2nd time (because we live about an hour away from each other) and I feel like his responses are getting shorter each time I talk to him. I feel like I'm annoying him with my lack of basic knowledge. He used to ask me about my life, or just randomly hit me up asking about what's going on. But he stopped. He stopped reciprocating questions the same way the first tinder guy did. And now I feel like the end of whatever we have is coming soon and I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
I hate myself a lot. I feel like I'm never gonna be good enough for someone to date. I want to experience something real. I just want someone to take me seriously, and want to get to know me. I want someone to actually like me. I feel like everyone I know is moving on to new stages in their life. Everyone I know is either in a relationship, getting engaged, or they're moving up in their careers. I don't even have something in my career plan to look forward to. I'm stuck looking for work, especially with covid happening, it's hard finding a job. And I don't know how to deal with this new guy. I don't know how to ask him what he wants from me without coming off as demanding or insecure.
I already felt unloveable before but now, after my experiences with all these guys, I feel like that fear of being unloveable is now confirmed. Am I really not good enough to date? Will I ever find someone who wants to keep going out with me? Am I really unlovable?
Tldr; everyone i date leaves me because I'm not good enough and now I'm questioning whether I'll ever be good enough.
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2020.09.23 22:51 Zoda_Popinski How badly were we hacked? What do we need to do now?

Never a good way to open a thread but here we go.
When I was at work today my better half received a call from what she thought was our ISP (they called on a landline we never had given out to anyone else and they were in possession of lots of personal details like date of birth and the date we started the subscription).
We had previously complained about the internet speed and they said that they called just because of that. First they asked her to do some speed tests. Then they said that they needed to look closer at the network and asked her to go to our ISP's website and download teamviewer on her mac. Then they asked her to do another speed test.
Then they asked her to open the terminal and run "scan my network" which resulted in the followingmessage:
CURRENT STATUS: ROUTER SOFTWARE PROTECTION HAS STOPPED WORKING. ROUTER NEEDS TO BE REPLACED AND CUSTOMER UNABLE TO GET PROPER SPEED OF INTERNET. CUSTOMER IS ELIGIBLE TO GET COMPENSATION OF £404.65 FROM SKY BILLING DEPARTMENT. (REFERENCE ID: SKY2001254GB).
Then they asked her if she accepted it and to hit "Y".
The message came up again and now they asked her to open a browser window and access her internet bank. It was at this point that she realized what was going on and she shut everything down.
She called our ISP and they said they reset our account and couldn't find any suspicious activity (whatever that means). The resetting of our account was after the scammers cloned the number so we were receiving lots of calls from all over the country from people who had missed calls from our number. The scammers had tried to reach other people using our phone number.
My GFs works IT department did a check of her machine and said they couldn't find anything.
When I came home and looked at the terminal there where a lot of odd commands in the terminal history that my GF hadn't even seen.
I'll post them in the other they appeared.
  1. scan my network,
  2. CURRENT STATUS: ROUTER SOFTWARE PROTECTION HAS STOPPED WORKING. ROUTER NEEDS TO BE REPLACED AND CUSTOMER UNABLE TO GET PROPER SPEED OF INTERNET. CUSTOMER IS ELIGIBLE TO GET COMPENSATION OF £404.65 FROM SKY BILLING DEPARTMENT. (REFERENCE ID: SKY2001254GB).
  3. HSBC
  4. Y
  5. PROCESSING ................... (27%)
  6. D201197B027168
  7. CURRENT STATUS: ROUTER SOFTWARE PROTECTION HAS STOPPED WORKING. ROUTER NEEDS TO BE REPLACED AND CUSTOMER UNABLE TO GET PROPER SPEED OF INTERNET. CUSTOMER IS ELIGIBLE TO GET COMPENSATION OF £404.65 FROM SKY BILLING DEPARTMENT. (REFERENCE ID: SKY2001254GB).
  8. HSBC
  9. CURRENT STATUS: ROUTER SOFTWARE PROTECTION HAS STOPPED WORKING. ROUTER NEEDS TO BE REPLACED AND CUSTOMER UNABLE TO GET PROPER SPEED OF INTERNET. CUSTOMER IS ELIGIBLE TO GET COMPENSATION OF £404.65 FROM SKY BILLING DEPARTMENT. (REFERENCE ID: SKY2001254GB).
  10. scan my network
My GF only remembers typing in "scan my network" and "Y".
i don't know much about the mac terminal, but none of these seems like actual commands?
So all in all, how badly have we been invaded? Do we need to look after any hidden malware or backdoors and how do we get rid of it?
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2020.09.23 22:49 gardenfaiiri I wish I could be your everything but I know I can’t.

Sometimes I think I’m in love with you, like really in love with you. I know I say I love you ten times over but it’s never quite with the meaning I intend. I’ve always had this idea that one day you’ll realise the relationships are pointless and that the person you need to be with has been standing right in front of you. Maybe it will be a quiet acknowledgment of this, and we will settle down together - not necessarily as a couple but as life partners.
Remember when you used to call me that? Your life partner, sometimes I wonder if you still think of me that way, if you’re as invested in this friendship as I am. I would do anything for you, I would drop everything if you needed me to. I can’t stress enough how I would go to the ends of the earth everyday for you. I have never felt a connection with someone so deep and meaningful. It’s not romantic, but it’s something and it’s important.
Don’t get me wrong, I love your partner. She’s become one of my best friends, and a person I don’t think I could live without. But I can’t help but feel I could give you so much more than her, I feel pangs if jealousy when I see that all the time we used to spend together is being spent on her. Did you know every since you started dating we have taken exactly one photo together, it looks out of place among the countless photos of you and your girlfriend plastered on your social media pages. But you remember how I said I would go to the ends of the world for you? Well I know that you love her more than you could ever love me, and I know it would devastate you to lose her. So I bite my tongue, keep my peace, and let you live and love in ignorance of my feelings. At the end of the day they are not important, what is important is your happiness and if loving her and not me is the source of a lot of that happiness than I am happy to live with silent feelings.
I’ve seen how your have come out of your shell since the beginning of this relationship, I love every part of the person you are becoming in part due to your girlfriend, I really really do. In all honesty though I didn’t believe this thing would go one for as long as it has, I was sure that in a few months we’d be back to normal. I feel bad because as much as I’ve held all this down I definitely acted out, you ask me why my mental health began to decline as rapidly as it did last September and I can’t admit it’s because of your relationship. For months I felt pushed out, all I every heard about was G and the time you spent with her, every free moment of spent with her and it felt like there was no longer a second in your day left for me. My mental health declined (it had been already for years), and in part it was for attention, I wanted you to care about me and to put time aside. The only way I knew how was to let you in on this suffering and it worked for a while until it didn’t. Until now where I’m left almost entirely alone to pick up the pieces and rebuild my life. I know this makes me a terrible person really, but I was desperately trying to hold onto something, I wanted you in my life and I’m sick of the people I truly care for walking out of it.
I miss when you would randomly text me to tell me that you love me, I miss saying up until 2am talking utter shit on the phone and laughing, I miss planning our lives together and being excited to make it a reality. But most of all I miss being your everything, I hope you know that you are still me everything, that whatever you needed I’d drop everything to be there. I would ruin my life over and over again for you, but right now I won’t do that. I am going to sit back and watch you live out my fantasy of being happy, cared for, and in love. I am going to leave all these feelings aside if it means your life will be better.
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2020.09.23 22:46 janie2222 How long does it take to fall in love?

I know this is probably different depending on the person and the relationship, but how long does it usually take to fall in love with someone you are dating? I recently got out of a 6 year relationship so I'm used to being fully in love with the person I'm with. I (20F) have a new boyfriend now (23M) and I don't love him yet but we've been together about two months and I didn't know when I would reach that point. And how do you know when you love them?
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2020.09.23 22:46 TapBarrel I think I'm unlovable

I[23F] have never been in a long term relationship. I've never attracted someone in real life. No one's ever asked me out or expressed interest in me. I've never had a crush on someone and experienced the possibility in them liking me back. And it's not like I haven't tried to change the way I look to attract more people. I've changed a lot, like my style and my make up, I've lost and gained weight. I try my best to be the kindest person I can be. Yet, I still have never attracted someone enough to go on 1 single date with anyone I've met naturally.
So I turned to tinder to find someone. I started with going on dates with guys. But they usually lasted a few weeks before we'd break it off. And then I finally found a guy that seemed to like me enough to wanna go on more than just 2 dates. Things between us started off kinda heavy, but after 2 months, he stopped talking to me. All he did was send me pictures of himself and expected me to say he looked good despite barely complimenting me whenever I would do the same. And I knew he was sending the same selfies to other people so it's not like sending them to me meant anything. He also never asked me how I was doing or even showed the slightest of interest in my life. All he did was talk about himself. Eventually, I broke up with him. But he said he just wasn't interested in me anymore, which ngl hurt. I know it was nothing personal but it just sucks bc I feel like the entire time, he just wanted someone to hype him up and someone he could use for sex. I was never someone he saw as good enough for him in any other way.
Fast forward a few months, I started sexting with guys from Tinder. A lot of them liked my body, commenting on my 'curves'. I started sexting this one guy who was drunk while sexting me. He started sending me compliments like "you're so beautiful" and "gorgeous." Normally, I block these guys after the sexting is over, and I did block him, but I was so taken aback by how nice he was and how nice the compliments he gave me were that I decided to unblock him. The next morning, I woke up to "Good morning beautiful" and then he asked for my IG. I gave it to him and he kept telling me how beautiful I was. I asked him if he wanted to hook up and he said sure. This was my first time hooking up with someone and I was so nervous but he was really sweet bc he kept telling me how nervous he was too. He was really sweet in real life and hooking up with him was honestly so hot. He talked to me for a few days afterwards but then he blocked me. Fast forward two weeks later, I get a message from him saying he was sorry he blocked me. He said he started falling for me but didn't want to. So then we started a sexting relationship. We would sext every now and then for a few months, he would always say "I miss you" and "I'm in love". Obviously I knew that these weren't actual emotional sentiments, he was just super horny. But sometimes he would say things to me like "I really like you as a person" and then proceed to state actual facts about me that he liked. We even called once and he said "I miss talking to you" and that's when my heart dropped. I started actually feeling things for him. And there was a possibility he felt the same way. But then I message him one day, asking if we could sext - this was the first time I initiated it, he's usually the one to hmu - and he says he's done with it. He doesn't want me anymore and I get hurt again. Just another guy that I think I have something with, only to find out in the end that I really was being used. This one should have been more obvious to me, but I was just so caught up in all the compliments and the sweet talking that I forgot what the agreement was between him and I.
I was so heartbroken by this, that I turned to Tinder once again to find someone. Eventually I found another person but he ended up being kind of a dick. He really liked me though, and the times when he was nice, he was really nice. But sometimes he would get mad over very small things which is a red flag. I tried to break it off with him, but he insisted we be friends. He let me vent to him about some things and he vented to me about other things and I was glad to have a new friend. But a few days after that, he reverted back to being mushy and saying "I miss you" "I like you" etc. I didn't know how to break it off with him so I just went along with it. I felt conflicted because here's someone that likes me and wants to hang out with me, but I don't like him back. Should I just take this opportunity while I have it? But it didn't matter, because he got mad at me for something small and blocked me. But it kind of made me think, am I someone people don't take seriously? Am I a toy? Because if this guy actually liked me, he wouldn't have just blocked me for no reason. I guess he realized I wasn't someone he could just play around with whenever he was bored and blocked me because I was no longer of use to him.
So I started hooking up with people. I thought, if I wasn't good enough to date, maybe I'm good enough to fuck. I went through a string of guys. I wanted to feel physically desired. I've always hated my body but hooking up with guys made me feel a little bit better about how I looked. But sometimes, these guys would look disappointed upon seeing me. And then I started to feel ugly again.
Then I made I promise to myself to stop hooking up with people. I should only have sex with people I date. I felt like I was getting bad luck because of how careless I've been with my body. My intention behind sleeping with so many people was not good. It's one thing to hook up with people because sex makes you feel good, but it's another thing to do it because it's the ONLY thing that makes you feel good. So I stopped. I blocked everyone. I was done. From here on out, I should only date.
So I met another guy on Tinder (4th times the charm right). He was sweet and we texted all day every day. After about a week, we went out on a first date. But we ended up having sex. I felt gross again, like I was just used for another hookup, thinking it was an actual date. I was just so disappointed in myself for letting things get so far. I was so tired of being used.
But then he texted me a few weeks later asking about my life. We started talking about how neither of us expected to have sex on that first date and he told me that he never usually has sex with someone he just met. We went back to being cute, talking pretty much every day, sending memes and selfies. But now, about 2 months later, it's died down. And I feel like I'm bothering him. We haven't gone out a 2nd time (because we live about an hour away from each other) and I feel like his responses are getting shorter each time I talk to him. I feel like I'm annoying him with my lack of basic knowledge. He used to ask me about my life, or just randomly hit me up asking about what's going on. But he stopped. He stopped reciprocating questions the same way the first tinder guy did. And now I feel like the end of whatever we have is coming soon and I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
I hate myself a lot. I feel like I'm never gonna be good enough for someone to date. I want to experience something real. I just want someone to take me seriously, and want to get to know me. I want someone to actually like me. I feel like everyone I know is moving on to new stages in their life. Everyone I know is either in a relationship, getting engaged, or they're moving up in their careers. I don't even have something in my career plan to look forward to. I'm stuck looking for work, especially with covid happening, it's hard finding a job. And I don't know how to deal with this new guy. I don't know how to ask him what he wants from me without coming off as demanding or insecure.
I already felt unloveable before but now, after my experiences with all these guys, I feel like that fear of being unloveable is now confirmed. Am I really not good enough to date? Will I ever find someone who wants to keep going out with me? Am I really unlovable?
Tldr; everyone i date leaves me because I'm not good enough and now I'm questioning whether I'll ever be good enough.
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2020.09.23 22:45 TheCyhiraeth $19k Pre-COVID, $6k Post-Covid Connecticut Wedding Budget and Recap

Hi Weddit!
I did the thing and got married last week! It was amazing, even with COVID going on. Sadly, no official pictures yet. (I do have some photos of setup and flowers if anyone would like those.) This subreddit was helpful to me while planning, especially the budget recaps, so I wanted to return the favor and help someone else out!
I got engaged in summer 2019, pre-COVID, and started planning then. So, this breakdown will go through what I had planned pre-COVID for a 140 person wedding, and also my cut down COVID wedding. Both in Connecticut--the original wedding was planned at a venue, and the smaller one was at an AirBNB. For anyone looking into an AirBNB wedding, maybe this will help!
Pre-COVID, 140 person wedding breakdown:
Here, I cover the costs of vendors that were booked, with deposits down, and any other significant anticipated spend for the big wedding. Costs that remained the same over both weddings are shown with the small wedding breakdown, later! Apologies if this ends up confusing!
Venue: $4500
The venue was a park on the beach in New Haven with a lighthouse and carousel. The plan was to have the wedding on the beach, and the reception in the carousel building. The venue did provide chairs and table for indoors, but I had to arrange for outdoor rentals and linens.
Catering: $5500
Our catering was BBQ, and it was amazing! (We did keep the same caterer for the smaller wedding). The cost included apps for cocktail hour and the reception dinner. It also covered staff to help set up, serve, and clean up.
Cake: $330
The cake was a 2-tier cake to feed about 20 people, with sheet cakes on the side for the remaining guests.
Photography: $1380
The photographer was booked for 6 hours, and had some prints/art as part of the package. She showed me some examples of previous beach weddings, and they were stunning! More on photog later.
DJ: $850
The DJ and MC were lovely and were working with me to plan special songs/dances and keep the night flowing.
JP: $300
Loved our JP! We did use her for small wedding, more later.
Day of Coordinator: $850
Our DoC was lovely! We had planned to have her for the night of our reception, and she would help with setup and cleanup of everything. She helped me when I had planning questions and checked in periodically to ask what I was working on and what she could help with. Sadly, we did not get to see her in action on the day of.
Bartending: $900
The bartending fee covered the bartenders, non-alcoholic drinks, garnishes, helping to mix signature cocktails, and bar supplies. They were awesome with planning and I am sad I didn’t get to see them in action.
Liquor: $1000
This was an estimate based on 140 people, as my husband (ahh!) and I were going to be responsible for liquor ourselves. Our actual purchase is outlined in the small wedding!
Rentals, dishes, linens: $1200
This cost was for renting outdoor ceremony chairs (venue provided indoor chairs only), cocktail tables for cocktail hour, tablecloths, napkins, dishes, silverware, glassware. I used a couple different vendors in the area to book these, as some had better prices on items, such as tables, than others. Linens I planned to purchase myself from LinenTablecloth.com (and I did for the small wedding!)
Total estimated cost: $19,643
This includes all the décor, flowers, misc. items not talked about above!
Post-COVID, 12-person wedding breakdown:
Due to COVID, our venue ended up cancelling all 2020 events. CT also set requirements on guests at 25 people inside, 100 outside. Since our reception was planned to be indoors, I knew we would have to cut down in size. In the end, we decided on 12 guests (14 with JP and Photographer). The guest list included me, my husband, our immediate families, and 1 close friend each. In the end, I am sad that we ended up having to cancel some vendors that we truly loved, but it was a much more intimate and personal experience for everyone.
To the budget!
Venue: $4200
Almost the same cost as for the bigger wedding, but this time was an AirBNB. I booked a beautiful, old mansion for 3 nights. We used it for the rehearsal dinner, wedding, and a post-wedding brunch! It was roomy enough to have all guests stay overnight and had a pool table, tennis, ping pong, and a lovely yard. It ended up being a perfect spot for an intimate wedding.
Catering: $745
We kept the same BBQ caterer and same menu, but this time cut down to feed about 20 people instead of 140. We loved them and the food was amazing!
Cake: $115
We kept the same baker, as my husband loved her more than anyone else we looked at. We kept our 2 tiered cake, and just removed the extra sheet cakes from the order. Part of me wishes I had kept the order for the sheet cakes though…cake for days!!!
Photography: $950
We kept our same photographer, but went from 6 hours down to 4 hours. She was incredible! She came up with some creative and fun shots for us to do, and I am looking forward to getting my pictures back. I’m not that comfy in posed pictures, but she made us feel confident.
JP: $300
Kept our JP. She was kind and flexible with the location change. She also worked with us to customize the ceremony to be exactly what we wanted. My husband is not a gushy romantic, so we were able to customize the ceremony to be personal without sounding too cheesy or like a fairy tale.
Videographer: $50
This was my dad! Since not everyone in our families could be present, we live streamed our wedding over Zoom. I bought a tablet holder, microphone, and super long USB cable off Amazon and we used it to set up Zoom on my dad’s tablet. (We already had a tripod at home.) He set up the call to start recording once he logged in, so we automatically had a video of our ceremony. The relatives had a blast chatting with each other pre- and post-ceremony. My dad also walked the tripod around during the portrait session so the relatives could feel like they were with us, mingling.
Liquor: $120
We stopped at a liquor store and bought some of our favorite wines, beer, and ciders.
Linens, dishes: $80
I bought tablecloths and napkins off LinenTablecloth.com, and a disposable party dinnerware set off of Amazon. The set included dinner plates, dessert plates, silverware, and cups for I think around 50 people. They were surprisingly good quality, and I don’t think anyone minded that they were disposable.
Dress and alterations: $300
I chose a beautiful dress off Azazie and had it tailored at a local seamstress. It fit me fantastically! I didn’t want to spend more than $500 on the dress, so Azazie was a good fit for me. I was pleasantly surprised at the quality and customer service.
Hairpieces: $25
Bought a sparkly wedding headband and hair clip off Amazon. Loved them.
Flowers: $70
I bought 50 roses off of Costco and stopped at the grocery store to pick up extra flowers I thought would look nice. Greenery I cut out of my yard off some bushes that were overgrown. Then I made the bouquets for me and 3 bridesmaids the morning before the wedding. I was so pleased how they turned out, and not to toot my own horn, I got some compliments from the family and vendors! 😊 Spare flowers and greenery were used to decorate the arch, which I did with my sisters-in-law the morning of the wedding.
Stationery: $70
I purchased save the dates off of Vistaprint in postcard format for my husband's side, since we didn’t have all his family’s emails. I did my save the dates using Paperless Post, since I did have most everyone’s email. When we cancelled our big wedding, we ordered cancellation postcards from Vistaprint, and Paperless Post let me notify everyone for free!
Misc.: ~$100?
My fiancé is very handy and built us an arch out of metal piping. Other misc décor included dollar tree vases, cake stand from Marshalls, robes for bridesmaids.
No DJ, rentals, day of coordinator, or bartenders for this wedding. The DJ was me making a Spotify playlist, and one of my sisters in law monitoring a Bluetooth speaker. Bartending was done just by setting glasses on the table, and beewine out on the counters. My husband did make a whiskey blackberry cocktail and we served it in my parent’s crystal punch bowl. The day of coordinator was mostly me with my endless spreadsheets, and my lovely family (both immediate and new in laws!), who all volunteered to complete tasks on my task sheet. I am happy to share spreadsheets or playlists if they would help anyone.
Total: $6500
Maybe that was a little costly than your normal small wedding/elopement, but we did cover lodging for our guests and had the venue for 3 nights. Overall, it was an incredible experience. If anyone has specific questions about vendors or the day please feel free to ask me!
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2020.09.23 22:44 zz___a89 I'm really confused and some people on here made it worse

please excuse my english if my sentences aren't correct, i'm not a native speaker 😅
first of all i just want to write about some annoying, misinformed users or users who think they met their twin flame and act annoying to people who posts stuff here because of that. i saw many users being sarcastic or mean to people who just want to get informed and figure out if they are experiencing a twin flame connection or not. and some reactions were really annoying. i don't know why those users think if you met your twin it gives you the power to be mean to other people on here lol. just grow and learn to be kind to people, no need to be extra. i also know that not every user is like that, so i'm sorry if it's kinda a negative and unnecessary post for those who are not, i just needed to get it off my chest. last thing i'm writing about this problem is, if you're an annoying user, don't be mean on my post, just don't comment and continue whatever you're doing. other comments are welcomed 😂
anyway i admit, i don't have much information about twin flames and every time i want to ask something on here i can't find the answers i'm looking for because of those type of users. this time i want someone to help me.
so i heard that every twin flame journey is different and circumstances can be different as well. that means before reunion or actual union there can be some obstacles right? but some people say when you meet them, boom! you are supposed to instantly grow a connection or date or marry with them and it's impossible to be only friends or acquaintances with them. so which one is true? i heard that there's also a awakening thing, so even if you meet your twin flame you might doubt it or don't know there's something special is going on at first. but again, some people say 'you are supposed to immediately know it! there's no way, you can't be unsure' and i just don't get it. why this topic is so complicated? i'm starting to feel like this topic/concept is a lie because everyone says different things, lol. i need someone to answer my question and explain these things to me.
my question is, can twin flames be just acquaintances? i'm confused. i'm not claiming i met my twin but i've been seeing angel numbers, synchronicities all the time and i don't know if it's about my spiritual path or twin flame journey. i also had strange psychic dreams about me and whoever my next partner or soulmate or twin flame is. and it was really weird because i can't figure out who he was because it was so blurry and bright. i asked on google before and it says it's an astral dream or something like that. it says you might met this person and can't identify them in your dream or you'll meet them soon.
on the other hand i know a guy which i get a familarity feeling by their appearance and energy. i met him nearly two years ago and we're just acquaintances. we come across a lot and he's on my social media but we don't talk at all. i developed an intense crush on him ever since we met and there are coincidences between us. i really wonder if he is my twin flame or am i just dreaming. is it possible that he's my twin flame? or if he's not, are other ones (angel numbers, syn., dreams) the signs of meeting my real twin flame?
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2020.09.23 22:43 taylor_2907 Any tips on the first chapter of a new story I’m writing (reupload because I deleted the other one)

Main plot: “the new generation” is being wiped out by the government for their rebellious acts and five teenagers wake up alone in separate locations with a bag of different supplies. As they try to avoid being killed they find each other and organise a plan to find and help other survivors. (Also please be nice this is my second draft and not sure if I can make it better)
The new Generation is dead. Or so they thought. There's survivors. No hope.
Julian opened his blue eyes slowly the leaves above him not hiding the blinding sun completely. A sharp sting shot from his left eye. Reaching out to it and touching it gently his fingers became coated in blood as another sting rippled through his eye. His surroundings were unfamiliar to him which caused great concern to the teenager. He looked down at what he was wearing to make sure it was his own clothes.
Julian was wearing a black t shirt with "Boys don't cry" written across it, a gift he was given a year ago by his close friend Damian for his birthday. A small smile crept up on his lips as he thought about that day. One of the few pleasant memories he had. Over the shirt was a black leather jacket with multiple pockets, another gift from his beloved friend. "To match your dark soul" Damian would often quote while slinging an arm over his shoulder bringing him into a hug. Julian also wore black ripped jeans which he noticed were more ripped than they should've been and the chain he usually had attached to them was no where to be seen. His black laces on his boots were also undone as if he ran out of the house in a rush. Something he usually did.
Feeling his chest Julian swore loudly before quickly slapping a hand over his mouth regretting it. Birds had flew away making the silent woods alive with the sound of the leaves. Edgy, Julian thought. The reason for his outburst was Julians binder, something he almost never took off was missing. Julian was trans, female to male and had bought multiple binders to make his chest flat enough until he could pay for top surgery. He felt weird without it, like a part of his wall had broken away, deteriorating and giving into his insecurities and dysphoria.
This bought tears to the intimidating looking teen, he refused to break easily but he knew that his father probably burnt all of his things when he left. Speaking of which, Julian wondered how he got to be in the middle of the woods. He didn't get drunk or high. That was the only thing he was certain of. He may bee a teenager but he wasn't into that. He saw how much shit Damian got into because of all of that.
Damian.
Julian always turned to his companion. Crying now Julian felt for his phone, when he finally found it shame and disappointment washed over him finding out it was cracked beyond repair. "Just what I need" Julain mumbled standing up deciding he was just going to find his way to Damian, or anyones house for that matter. He was completely lost.
Immediately, Julian tripped over a bag laying in front of him. Sighing loudly feeling like that day couldn't get any worse he knelt down by the side of the bag and opened it riffling through the contents. The bag contained medical supplies and equipment. Way more than one person would need. The bag itself was big and looked like it had been used many times before, the brown fabric starting to fade and the leather straps looked like they could rip if any more weight were put on them. However, the straps looked new and had enough padding for it to be somewhat comfortable.
Slinging the bag over his shoulders and running his hand through his multicolored hair Julian started the hike to civilization, where ever that was.
Three long hours of wandering through the forest, getting lost a few times and finding himself in the same place more than twice and managing not to get mauled by some wild animal later, Julian managed to find himself in a city alive with people. He noticed many people giving him dirty looks. Confused and slightly scared, however he didn't want to show it, he made his way to a kind looking police officer for help. He didn't know the date, time or where he was. As he approached two more, taller, muscular, meaner looking officers joined the short, blond haired woman. The three immediately took notice of Julian, being the good law abiding citizen he was, he was slightly scared on what trouble he could get into. Julian started to reconsider turning around and find someone else, someone that didn't have so much authority for help.
Figuring it was too late to turn back he stood in front of the trio not looking at either of them and instead looking at the cobblestone floor.
"Hey... so I was wondering if you could-" Julian started but was immediately cut off by one of the male officers, his voice sounded like nails being dragged across a black board. He had black hair and cold grey-blue eyes. The life was drained from them many years ago Julian figured.
"Give me your arm" He ordered making a grab for Julains right arm. Julian flinched and pulled his arm away stepping back looking for a way to escape. "I'm not going to ask again. Show us and we'll be able to help you." He added managing to get a good enough grip on Julians arm pulling up his sleeve.
Julian screamed and tried to pull away but only ended up hurting himself in the process. There was a small tattoo on Julians wrist, one he didn't have put there himself. He never had any tattoos. The whole situation was freaking him out more. The tattoo was the letter Z written in a small typewriter font. His arm had little, consistent and straight red lines across them, something he didn't want anyone, especially authority figures seeing. He didn't want to be pitied by the same people who were the reason of his self destructive behaviours.
"How old are you?" The other male officer asked. He looked the same as the other but had a lower voice.
"Why does that matter- Get off me-" Julian pleaded starting to become visible afraid and kicked out at the officer holding him. His foot connected with the officers shin which made him let go pretty quickly. Julian took the opportunity to run. He didn't look back as he sprinted through the street and down poorly lit alleyways. He was lucky the alleyways were empty making for a quick and easy escape without worrying about other people getting in his way.
His jacket flapped in the wind and his bag hit painfully against his back something digging into it. He had managed to tie his shoelaces in the woods before starting the hike so he didn’t have to worry about tripping.
When he thought he was safe, Julian collapsed behind a bin to catch his breath and observe his surroundings. He knew less now than he did before. He also became aware again of his wound on his eye, the wind stung it while he was running but adrenaline caused him to ignore it. Julian didn’t have any medical or first aid experience or training so had no idea how to treat it, the bad he woke up with didn’t even have water so he could attempt to clean it.
After catching his breath, Julian stood up slowly looking around for the three officers who seemed to lost him within the maze of alleyways.
Just as he was about to turn and walk away and back to the streets, a tall figure walked around the corner of the alley. Julian ducked behind the bin again trying not to make a sound. He heard the sound of shoes gently tapping against the alleyway floor.
"Hello...?" The figure asked. The voice was soft and but had hits of curiosity. Julian wasn't sure if he could trust whoever was the other at the opposite side of the bin.
Deciding his day couldn't get worse, Julian walked out and stood in front of a girl. She was 5ft 6, three inches taller than Julian.
"Hey..." Julian smiled slightly looking down the alley both ways to make sure the coast was clear before continuing the conversation.
"Do you know what's going on..? I've been chased by police and woke up in an alleyway.. and I have a bag of food way more than I need.." The girl asked, she gestured to the bag on her back. It was similar to julians but a light blue which had clearly faded with age. Julian noticed the tattoo of a Z on her right arm similar to Jalians it was half covered by her open button up navy plaid shirt, under it was a black tube top. She also wore light blue jeans which were dirty, safety pins were attached to the belt hoops which also held a small thin brown belt. The woman had naturally dark skin with freckles across her cheeks and nose. She had short black curly hair which rested on her shoulders. There was a necklace around her neck with a small crystal pendant.
"I don't know.. I woke up in the middle of the forest and I don't know where I am.. or what the time is" Julian lent against the alleyway wall running another hand through his hair. "I'm Julian by the way.."
"I'm Elle" Elle smiled and lent next to him. "We should find other people that won't try to chase us shouldn’t we? I don’t think staying in an alley will help” Julian nodded in agreement and stood up slightly. Elle did the same and continued down the alley with Julian following close behind.
"So.. tell me about yourself." Julian said wanting to get to know his knew companion. Elle looked away and sighed quietly.
"I'm 16 years old, I live in New Lloyd City with my mother and sister, my dad died when I was seven and I go to new Grace College studying law, I have a pretty boring life” Elle went on to talk about her live for cooking and the time she almost burnt her kitchen down while trying to make pie. The two laughed at that. “I woke up a couple of hours ago in an alleyway and was chased by a group of police officers and then I found you." Elle added figuring it would be helpful to add her strange start to the day, as the two left the alley. The streets were still filled with people but they were surrounding a building which had a large digital notice board on the top. It was showing the news, something that never happened unless there was a natural disaster warning or the town had to evacuate. Until then it was just to advertise clothing, perfumes, or travel companies.
The two watched but stayed a safe space away out of sight. The local news reporter appeared on the screen.
"The new Generation,the rebellious generation must be stopped. The government has decided it was best for our country and world to wipe out the entire generation. For every person turned in you'll be rewarded $50,000. 10 Million of them have already been taken out. Ages fourteen to twenty one they are marked and identified by a letter Z on their right wrist. Anyone who is hiding a member of the new Generation will be prosecuted. Police house searches will continue for the next year. The rebellion will be over."
Julian and Elle both froze hearing the news. Elle grabbed Julians hand and ran off dragging him along, her fight or flight reflexes kicking in before Julians. They managed to escape the busy street without being seen or at least, they were ignored. The two collapsed under a tree in the local park which was luckily empty. The words rang in Julians ear, he only realized that he was crying until Elle put a hand on his shoulder.
"Julian.. are you okay?" She asked softly, she sounded concerned and surprisingly not out of breath.
"10 million people.. I need to see if Damian is still alive.." Julian rambled on crying harder. He was terrified that his only friend was dead or missing.
"He might still be, but you need to calm down, take a deep breath. It'll be okay I promise.." Elle lifted Julians head up slightly looking into his eyes. Julian nodded slightly and took a deep breath calming down slightly. He tried to think positively but his mind was not helping him. All he could think about was his friend being taken away and never seeing him again.
Julian calmed down slightly and lent against Elle feeling exhausted. The sun had started to set and the air was starting to get cold the wind biting at their skin.
"Want something to eat, I mean I have enough." Elle offered laughing slightly trying to brighten up the mood.
"No I'm okay thanks, we should get some rest, I have a feeling we'll be doing a lot of running in the future." Julian smiled slightly and curled up against the tree. He was trying to warm up using the jacket as a blanket. The bark dug into his skin uncomfortably and leaves fell onto the two.
"I'll take the first watch" Elle offered knowing Julian was exhausted. Julian nodded slightly and closed his eyes. He wasn't sure if he completely trusted Elle but she also had the mark and wouldn't let the two get into danger if that danger meant death.
Soon, the darkness and sleep swept over him and he fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.
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